CareBears_ForeverLove's Xanga

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Sun, 31 May 2009 15:42:57 GMT

Once upon a time, the princess have a dream which she wishes to fulfill and that is: To stay in Sydney and make a pathway for my career and build on my relationship. Eventually, I would like to be a financial analyst. I feel that I am slowly following J's footpath but he did it ten years earlier than me. I know that my path is still at the very beginning and I am taking baby steps to make things right. I believe I will eventually get there. After completing my final exams for this semester, I will need to improve my resume and cover letter, prepare for the IELTS exams, prepare the documents to lodge in my PR application, convert my Malaysian driving license into Australian driving license and to pick up playing the piano again.

I will be brave and take all future challenges as they come. By October after my second sister's wedding, I will return to Sydney and lodge in the permanent residency application. Besides, I will have to start looking for accounting, human resources or administration full time job.

First of all, start studying tomorrow for finals because I need to pass all three subjects with excellent grades.

To the one I care the most, I am sorry I am selfish for choosing this path and thanks for giving me time to prove that I can survive in this challenging business industry. Thank you for coming to terms with me that I would like to have the opportunity to work with outsiders.

13th March 2010 is the day I decide my fate. If I cannot find a full time accounting job by then, I will return to Malaysia.

Sundays

Sun, 24 May 2009 01:16:37 GMT

Today is a lazy Sunday because for once since Week 4, I do not have assignments to rush or exams to study. I only have a tutorial submission which I have to do by tonight. Other than that, the semester is ending in two weeks. 14 days. My whole university life is ending in exactly one month's time after finals. What beholds me in the future is still describe with one word- uncertainty. Uncertainty because I still yearns to the hope to stay in Sydney after graduating. However, I could come back in two years with some job experiences in hand. I could have completed at least 3 professional papers by then. But I will miss my carefree days in Sydney where I wake up at 10am, head to the cafes by the beach to have true Australian breakfast and laze around reading. Of course, I could also snuggle snoopy to bed and sleep in.

さようなら. 私は愛をすべて私の心で

I am watching a Japanese anime while waiting for my housemate to finish cooking lunch. My housemate is leaving in one week's time back to Jakarta. I will miss her so much especially our chats and teasing one another. Drinking wine sessions, eating home cook western food with too much garlic butter and lovely cakes are sessions that will be missed by me.

I am planning my holidays after the final exams. Initially, I had planned to go back to Singapore on the 27^th June but I might delay the trip because what if touchwood I failed an exam and have to sit for the supplementary paper. Talking with the Singapore Airlines customer service representative on the phone is a very tough job because they have outsourced to India. 20^th July to 10^th August. Give me some time to prepare for the documents to lodge in my permanent residency. I am sitting for IELTS on the 5^th September. Fingers-crossed I pass with flying colours. Four sevens are all I am hoping for.

Ok, I will write another time. I want to enjoy my tea with some soothing music for the remaining Sunday afternoon before I get back to studying again tonight. Catching up with Christie tonight will be fun because I have too much things to talk to her about. Before I go, I wish that I can say sorry to someone whose feelings I believe I hurt badly on Wednesday.

Exam Timetable

Tue, 12 May 2009 01:33:48 GMT

Day	Date	Start Time	End Time	Course	Paper#	Location	Materials

Tuesday	23/06/2009	08:45	11:30	COMM5005:Quant Methods for Business	1		Electronic Calculators Any text books or notes
Wednesday	24/06/2009	08:45	11:00	COMM5001:Bus Comm, Ethics & Practice	1		Any text books or notes
Wednesday	24/06/2009	13:45	16:30	FINS5511:Corporate Finance	1		Electronic Calculators

^-^ Weekend

Sat, 09 May 2009 14:31:25 GMT

Happy Mother's Day! It is Sunday 1.15 am here in Sydney

I am the youngest daughter in the family and probably the one that my mother worries about the most because of my gullible and naive personality. However, as years goes by in Sydney, I have become more independent and not as reckless when making decisions. I know that you are always worried about me because I am far away from home. Mum, I won't do anything to make you worried anymore. I was a rebellious teenager who quarreled a lot with my mum especially the year when I was going to further my studies in Australia. However, it is true that mothers knows best. I never regretted being given a chance to come to Australia and be independent. Love you heaps and hopefully you will enjoy Mother's Day since sisters are at home.

On Saturday (technically yesterday, it was Wesak Day) and the Buddhist society in the university organized the Wesak Day celebration Mahayana style. Honestly...I was planning to shop at Chatswood Chase but I changed my mind because my eldest sister and mother reminded me the importance of this day and adviced that I should make this day a priority because it marks the birth and enlightenment of Buddha.

From tomorrow onwards, I will have to focus on my COMM5001 Justice essay. I have some idea on how to write the report and hopefully my group will get high marks on the assignment. Besides, there is the COMM5005 assignment waiting for me. So much work to be done, so little time...and I still want to go retail therapy.

I am meeting my migration agent on Tuesday. Need to get a few things clarified first.

The key to love

Sat, 02 May 2009 07:49:37 GMT

"ö Älright I will be praying for your finance exam at the temple" my friend who is currently residing in Penang replied my rather desperate MSN conversations. A week later, I received my results and gleams in satisfaction. I am blessed with wonderful and supportive friends like him. However, when it comes to love, I am sometimes left out in the cold and dark.

There are so many things that I would like to write here but I feel like my life is being scrutinised because of the over exposure. My nose is half-blocked thanks to me not wearing a jacket which is thick enough to counter the crazy weather in Sydney last week. I had the worst bowl of Vietnamese pho before my haircut the other day. My housemate was wondering why is it that some restaurant owners are super rude but still manage to attract many customers to the restaurant? Just because the food is so-so. I will definitely not return. I rather take the one hour flight to Melbourne to enjoy my Pho.

By end of September, I will be leaving this familiar city where I spend six years from 18-24 to another city that I will call my home for ever? for two years? I have decided to finish my CPA and gain job experience in Malaysia. I should be happy because the food that I have missed, the companionship, the family and familiar surroundings that I grew up in right? Then, why is there this tinge of sadness to let go of my life here in Sydney. I bet I will miss the runs from Uni to Coogee. I will also miss the close friends, the university and of course my soulmate.

I will try to settle back down in Malaysia. However, the idea of applying for a permanent residency offshore is so attractive now. It is my security blanket right...that if anything goes wrong back home, I can return to Australia. If there is better job prospects in Australia, I can come back after I finish my CPA. And if fate has it that we are meant to be, then at least coming back will be much easier.

But who am I trying to fool here? My life has been destined since the first day that I was born into the family. My happiness is not to be of my concern. What I want is decided by others. Bah.

Updates

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 08:04:50 GMT

Haven't been writing here in Xanga for a while. Many events has taken place in my life since I last wrote. I have turn 24 celebrating with my wonderful friends and spend a weekend trip in Melbourne, drinking wine and eating fudge at Yarra Valley. Greco at Crown Casino still serves irrestible cakes- Mars Bar cheese cake is yummy. Next on my itinerary: Adelaide and Barossa Valley...hopefully surprising the boo. Shh, lets keep that a secret.

From 3rd of February until 17th of February, this 2 weeks was memorable moments because I was taking Jetstar return ticket. Really cheap. AUD600 for a return trip to Osaka. And of course there was snow and ice festival at Sapporo and Otaru to look forward to. The Japanese food was absolutely fantastic. Yee-ho. Another reason why Japan was so fantastic was because of the great company of Christie @Leilei @ Dai Blink Our Japan trip consisted of flashbacks of Sapporo, Tokyo and Osaka. The second day of the trip was quite memorable. It was like we were playing The Amazing Race considering the fact that we had to move our 20kg luggage in the subway and train stations from Osaka all the way to Kobe for our flight to Sapporo. Sapporo was really enjoyable with the seafood and gorgeous winter views. While I went snowing in Snowy Mountains here in Sydney before, but this is really experiencing snow for the first time in my life.

Tokyo was not as memorable as Sapporo and Osaka merely because the "Ba Ga" me decided to go to Disneyland and Disneysea- where happiness is made. Apparently not. We should have spend our days doing better things like exploring more of Tokyo. Osaka was great. The first night there, I won three soft toys. Really cute ones. And a gigantic snoopy. Our accomodation throughout the trip was absolutely cheap too. I think Boo will not believe that with 45 dollars we can stay in proper rooms at Japan. His first remarks when I got back to Sydney safely was "I can't believe you survived! Did you bath in cold water?"

Photos will be posted up soon. I am blogging from the University's computer because I am waiting for Christie to finish her law class.

I really have to catch up on my readings for my COMM 5001 tutorials. Finance is ABSOLUTELY frustrating, especially financial mathematics. Even though I have a financial whiz as my boo. It is not helping because boo thinks what I am learning is basic and very fundamental stuffs and everytime I ask him for help, I get a knock back on my head. Sorry boo...you are just stuck with someone who is not born to do finance. Lets pray that I do well in all my subjects.

I will do a proper post once I find the time to. Away from the readings and the TVB dramas.

Christmas Love

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 08:27:40 GMT

To all blog friends,

Wishing you a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. Seasons Greetings. Eat more...then make a resolution for a healthier 2009.

I found love again in him. We were arguing a lot when I was in Sydney. But everything seems like a jigsaw puzzle and click.

To Leilei, be strong. I am sure 2009 will be a better year for you. Can't wait to see you in Sydney.

^-^

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 20:42:29 GMT

Haven't been here for a long while. Terror holds Mumbai Hostage and Bangkok International Airport shut down reads the headline of the newspaper. I hope that these events had not happen. Hopefully the people stranded at Bangkok and the victims in Mumbai can face this bravely.

Yesterday was the verdict day on how well I did for this semester. Taking Advanced Financial Reporting and Taxation Law this semester was quite a terror. Having Taxation Law and Economics exam two days consecutively is quite an experience. The adrenaline rush and excitement with a tinge of fear filled me the whole afternoon. When the clock was 5pm, I thought my day was save because there haven't been any email from the University. But just seconds after that, the email showed up. Thank goodness that the results is better than expected.

On 18th December, I will be going back to Malaysia. The first time going back to celebrate Christmas and New Year after spending it in Sydney the previous years. My friend Kee is getting married on 20th December. I am so excited because she is the second one in the batch to get married. I am happy for her as they have been dating for quite a while now.

Ok...I guess that is all I want to update for now.

Temporary relief

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 05:23:17 GMT

Dance like no one's watching
Sing like no one's listening
Work like you don't need the money
Love like you've never been hurt before
Live like there's no tomorrow

I am finally free and enjoying my weekend!I thought I will go shopping first thing today but my energy level is too low, having only slept 12 hours during the four days before the taxation law paper.

A sigh of relief. But waking up this morning to the news that the Sin Chew Chinese newspaper reporter got detained under the ISA act in Malaysia is utterly disappointing. I am not going to comment about Raja Petra and Theresa Kok. Can someone in the cabinet please justify why the reporter was detained instead of Ahmad Ismail, the asshole who gave that speech? What is the justification of the action? If the reporter reporting the incident can cause tension and security dangers to the country, then shouldn't the first one to be detained be Ahmad Ismail? He is clearly causing tension between the Malays and the Chinese in the country. And I could have sweared that I foreseen another 13th May 1969 incident.

I have made my own decision. I will return back to Malaysia to work (or at least to satisfy the parents and aunties) but there is nothing to stop me now from applying for permanent residency in Australia. Because with Australian PR, any moment I feel like it, I can fly over. It is my insurance to leave Malaysia one day permanently. And no, is not because I do not love the country. I love the country, especially the family and friends. That is the only reason why I am returning.

Can someone please wake up our sleeping prime minister? Apparently, the March elections is not enough to be a wake up call for him.When can the ISA be abolished? When can Malaysia be a country that everybody have equal rights and not being discriminated for the race? I seriously feel that instead of progressing, Malaysia is slowly turning back and behind.

Ahmad made veiled threats as well, saying that “He (Dr Koh) is a leader who is really good at tai chi but I would also like to remind everyone not to forget that the Malays are equally good at silat,’’ referring to two martial arts disciplines.

In my opinion, you go silat all you want...I will just use M16 and shoot you to death. No, not M16. Maybe nuclear bomb sounds better.

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 08:13:55 GMT

ADVANCED FINANCIAL REPORTING (on this Saturday!) Yes. For the first time in my postgraduate years, an exam on a weekend. How exciting!
followed by...
ECONOMICS (on Monday night! Hooray...)
followed by...
TAXATION LAW(on Friday night!)

The next two weeks will make me explode. It will drain me out physically. I should not complain, should I because this is the path that I chose. This is the professional chartered accountant beginning.

Yet, there is so many confusion at the moment. Am I right?

Edited: I don't know how to say this but thanks so much for your phone call last night. In the midst of the textbook, lecture notes.

Thanks for your encouragement...and you know, your attendance in my graduation is a must. I am superwoman.

I am still surviving. Economics paper was alright, do able. But the Advanced Reporting was hell... I completed the paper but I think this might be the worst one ever in my tertiary education. I know most of my friends came out with a "VERY HARD" exclamation! No, I am not exaggerating. I just pray that I pass. I just want a pass. Oh, I passed this one! Thank goodness :D

On Taxation Law: I have only finished 2 1/2 lectures...2 1/2 to go...problem is this is the hard part. I let all the emotions come out last night. And now, I am ready to fight this challenging paper. I will bring you down...tax!!!