| | "ö Älright I will be praying for your finance exam at the temple" my friend who is currently residing in Penang replied my rather desperate MSN conversations. A week later, I received my results and gleams in satisfaction. I am blessed with wonderful and supportive friends like him. However, when it comes to love, I am sometimes left out in the cold and dark.
There are so many things that I would like to write here but I feel like my life is being scrutinised because of the over exposure. My nose is half-blocked thanks to me not wearing a jacket which is thick enough to counter the crazy weather in Sydney last week. I had the worst bowl of Vietnamese pho before my haircut the other day. My housemate was wondering why is it that some restaurant owners are super rude but still manage to attract many customers to the restaurant? Just because the food is so-so. I will definitely not return. I rather take the one hour flight to Melbourne to enjoy my Pho.
By end of September, I will be leaving this familiar city where I spend six years from 18-24 to another city that I will call my home for ever? for two years? I have decided to finish my CPA and gain job experience in Malaysia. I should be happy because the food that I have missed, the companionship, the family and familiar surroundings that I grew up in right? Then, why is there this tinge of sadness to let go of my life here in Sydney. I bet I will miss the runs from Uni to Coogee. I will also miss the close friends, the university and of course my soulmate.
I will try to settle back down in Malaysia. However, the idea of applying for a permanent residency offshore is so attractive now. It is my security blanket right...that if anything goes wrong back home, I can return to Australia. If there is better job prospects in Australia, I can come back after I finish my CPA. And if fate has it that we are meant to be, then at least coming back will be much easier.
But who am I trying to fool here? My life has been destined since the first day that I was born into the family. My happiness is not to be of my concern. What I want is decided by others. Bah.
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